Seeya soon!
Sunday, 15 July 2007
I'm utterly utterly exhausted from the past few days of doing housework & mad shopping. x)
Yea, just here to say a little farewell to my blog for 5 days before seeing her again.
I'm going for the HSSFOC2007 camp tmr and...
I'm... Excited & Apprehensive I guess. 0_o
x) I'm going to definitely stay on for the full 5days & have fun, even though I barely know any one whose going for the camp!
Toodles Darlings, I'll seeya guys soon again. :)
ps: Thanks Gwee for lending me the bag! xD It's fits everything just nice & it's HUGE! 0_o
pps: Thanks to Jun & Ning for a fun saturday of shopping madness & lugging the ENORMOUS printer around, hehe! :)
11:27 pm
She's the housewife-in-training. ;p
Thursday, 12 July 2007
Today's date 12 July is very highly significant to me, in many ways I can't quite explain.
It's darkly prophetic though that I mentioned about one being able to break my dreams & not my spirit. Well, sometimes you just have to realise it's a form of self-fulfilling prophecy too.
Here's a short prose I wrote to honour this date;
& so a year would have marked this day,
look where a year has bought us all
& then laugh at the folly of it all.
Alright, enough about that doom & gloom of the date.
My Maid has been sent home today.
I can't quite explain what I feel..?
A sense of freedom strangely is the one that rings out loud the strongest amongst the cacophony of emotions like excited, fear, sadness & yes, even guilt.
Why Guilt?
My Mum refused to tell Gladys, my domestic helper, that she wanted to send her home till the actual day itself.
It seems all rather inhumane to me you know, it's after all her livelihood but Mum kept telling me it's a pure act of necessity.
One act of necessity which I can understand but at the same time, I just don't feel good doing it.
Life's going to take a different route and turn from now & everything has got to be done on our own.
Aiya, we can one la.
It's just strange I guess cuz I've been too used to having a stranger live in my own house and all.
Aye, I can't quite explain what I'm feeling now.
In any case, as I'm typing I'm waiting for the washing machine to complete it's washing cycle of the clothes. Then I'm going to hang the clothes then zzz...
Heh. Your can't imagine me doing housework huh? (Neither can Hui Ning though! ;p)
Well, please turn your imagination gene on cuz it's true! (:
Anyway, I gotta sweep & mop the entire house tmr.
& I'll learn how to iron tmr night. >.<
Oh yea! and I had my first driving lesson today.
OMG, I think I'm quite slow & funny, my driving instructor, Francis, kept laughing at me.
I swear I asked him very innocuous questions about driving only!
But apparently it rendered me some sort of blur pok case already.
Heh heh. I drove for a few rounds though. (:
I've got another lesson tmr afternoon & we'll see... (:
11:31 pm
highhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Tuesday, 3 July 2007
OMG OMG OMG.
It's a little mad.
I was kinda highhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh last night. =X
I kept giggling and we were doing stupid what-nots.
I was so not drunk, just high. Very high.
okay, so it started out like this:
We met at Dhoby Ghaut for Huilin's birthday celebration and headed to Fish & Co at the glass house there for a meal.
I'm not sure how or what happened but We later ended up Winnie's house & drinking Absolut Peach diluted with sprite.
Jules left early before the drinking started cuz she wasn't feeling too good & had school the next day.
Darn. I can't hold my liquour well.
I was woozy after 2 and a half drinks and when I downed the 3rd or 3 and a half, whooooo.... I started giggling and became deliriously happy.
Winnie & Wan Ting kinda went in the same state as I did.
So the 3 of us were like erm giggling, falling all over the place, giving chaste pecks to our birthday girl and Winnie any how grope people lah.
Hahhaha! x)
Anyway, I really should build up my drinking capacity a bit more. This is pathetic.
I can't really remember the details. >.<
I cabbed home with Ros that I do know.
And... I'm so glad we were drinking at someone's house instead of out at some pub.
Heh.
Alcohol is bad, really bad especially for girls.
You'd never know what you're doing. =X
ps: Between us 5 we finished 1 litre of absolut peach. >.<
pps: omg, yes, I remembered now, I tried to blog last night but I was too conked out.
ppps: Thank Goodness my parents were asleep when I went home otherwise... I'll die lah.
pppps: And other reasons why you shouldn't drink so much.... i) it's hard to sleep ii) you get weird dreams. I dreamt that Tommy went to NTU eng with me & we were a dating couple!!!!!!! 0_0 And MarkTan was so happy about it and gloating over it in the dream. >.<
11:31 pm
Ahhhaahhaha, Happy birthday huikijn! (:
1:03 am
Oh bloody helll.......
I don't know how I did it but I'm home.. super groggy now........
crap... I kinda remember & know what I'm doing yet I dont reeally care...............
Bleahs.
1:01 am
The Secret of Happiness. (:
Monday, 2 July 2007
Happiness. x)
Yes, what exactly does it mean to you?
I realise that most of the time people blog about stuff
they're unhappy about to whine & complain.
To be fair, they call it their outlet to
funnel their unhappiness and channel their sorrow.
I do that too.
In fact I do it rather often.
I feel a great change of heart tonight
and I really want to deviate from the
usual nonsencial grudges and complains we hold and write about.
I wrote a little poem like thing here
which I shall title simply as
The Simple Happiness.
The Simple Happiness
Some spend a lifetime yet never seek what they yearn.
Some know their purpose from whence they're born.
Others grope blindly in the dark & in an instant grasp it all.
In a beautiful instant, grasp it all.
I suppose this is what happiness means. x)
To look beyond the frontier
and delve into the heart of it all,
to know you're beautiful, one, the same
and yet all so different in many beautiful ways.
Its a celebratory act of life;
to know you're different, yet also as similar,
but loved just the same.
To know how to Love & appreciate yourself
and then extend the same for all around.
Life's beautiful, you see,
and just as short as the miracle
beauty spectre of a darting star in the skies.
It's all there in its glorious splendor.
& it only happens,
IF you choose to see it. xD
The whole of the poem is to remind you
that perhaps the so-called elusive happiness
can very easily be found and obtained
by looking into yourself to fulfil your soul urges.
I guess I would define soul urges ideas
the need to Love and be Loved. (:
(I also played with the ideas of "greatness thrust upon them".)
Tell me which human being doesn't need that?
It's just a fundamental and natural human
instinct, isn't it?
Yes, why all these talk about happiness?
(Which pretty much isn't a subject people talk
about often with much gusto and optimism strangely.)
I've been reading "The Secret" by Rhonda Byrne.
And it is by far,
the MOST INSPIRATIONAL
INSPIRATIONAL BOOK
I've read. xD
Seriously, you might ask.
Yes, seriously Seriously. xp
If I could afford it,
I'd buy a book each for all my friends. (:
(But, of course, I can't.)
So do get it yourself, okay? ;p
Well, The Secret may be familiar and cliched in some ways,
but it does serve it's purpose to remind & guide us.
I'm stil learning how to apply The Secret
& knowing my wishes will be fulfilled. (:
I did something that made me feel all warm & fuzzy today
and really genuinely happy. x)
I spent an evening at the Serangoon Gardens with Jules today.
What made it so special, you might ask?
I decided to organise a small mini-impromptu foodie fiesta
to celebrate Jules's first day of school tomorrow.
I guess the sad part was that
Roslin and Wan Ting couldn't join us,
but it's also fine cuz...
It's good to have some one-on-one downtime with people too. (:
We pigged out with all our favourites at Chomps,
sambal stingray, sugar cane, chicken wing,
chilli sotong and rojak.
Then we headed to our favourite Coffee Bean outlet
at Gardens, talked and laughed the night through.
I gave her a small (mushy >.<) note that I've written
and her favourite cadbury black forest chocs.
I just wanted to get her hyped up for James Cook Uni,
let her know its fine wherever she goes
and that her friends still care very much for her. x))
I don't know why I did what I did,
but I really wanted to
and I'm glad I did. (:
Happiness to me means
being able to Love and appreciate yourself
and in turn knowing how to extend that to others
to bring a smile to their faces too.
I think I might just burst of pure genuine giddy joy tonight soon. (:
Good night and may you find what's the Happiness you want
when you look upon the depths of your (not-so) grubby soul! ;p
ps: It's because of Moments like this that
drives me to pursue a career in
teaching, counselling and social work. x))
12:56 am
