"You I remember because of what you are to me." (:

Monday, 23 April 2007

EEEEeeeee! Kinda pek chek with my phone.

It is acting reeeeeeeeeally screwy.
The screen flickers on and off occassionally.
I can't game. I can't watch videos. I can't take pictures. )=

AND just when I'm starting to get interested in protography.
How can one take pictures discreetly (or rather more discreetly) without her cam phone?
Sigh. Shall have to persuade Dad to loan me his laopok digital cam for tomorrow. :S

I'm not quite sure what happened since my previous song erricson phone had similar problems.
Hmmm. it's either: i) the SIM card is weird.
ii) My chor-lor-ness rendered my phone incapacitated. (I'm always dropping it onto the floor.)

So I started preparing to make way for a new phone. :D
By writing out all the phone numbers on a piece of paper.

It seemed like an uphill task really. But I did it! =D

It catalysted the mood for some (profound xb Kidding!) thoughts though.

I was wondering about well, how heartless I have been.

I don't really make an effort to keep in touch with people I realised.

There were so many names in my handphone list that I remembered and
at some point in the past, these people were so close to me.
Some you shared tears with. Others peals of laughter.

Yet somewhere along the way, as Father time trickles away, I dropped them.

Unintentionally or intentionally?

Perhaps I just don't make enough of an effort.

To name a few, my secondary school friends I've met in lower sec,
people like Jia Li, Mei Geok and Pei Si.
(Our Chinese gardens trips)

Even Wong and Yi Kang who at some distant place in time...
We did spend some really great moments together. (:
(The coffin mnc we set up for sec 3 geog project.)

Jacqueline and Joyce whom I met during first three months.
(EOL 2005 (: it's grease lightning! )

My Primary school friends particularly! People like Jessica, Pearly and Zhao Yu.

Actually, there are more people I can think of that fits this list but...
I shan't dwell too much about it, my conscience is gnawing really hard.

But somehow people always end up like that.
Somehow no matter how much you say you'd keep in touch and all,
there's this lazy quality that ebbs in eventually.

I'm sure I'm not the only one that has such "heartless tendencies".

You know at some point we shared the laughter, tears and precious memories of the yesteryears.

I think my friends whom I've met like ten years ago or less,
those friendships suffered the most damage from pure neglience.

Sometimes, it's not that I don't want to pick up those pieces.
So much Time has elasped that the heart doesn't recognise the special connections one
has with those people anymore.

Time has rendered all those special moments to morph into awkward ones,
where you really really do small coffee shop talk to update each other of your lives.

I'm kinda suspecting my relations with my JC friends might suffer the same fate.
They've been saying that I MIA-ed quite some bit this year and honestly, yes,
I know I did.

(But I stayed away for reasons too. Sorry. >.< )

I'm glad I've been able to maintain ties with Shing Yee and Hui Ning. :)
Honestly, they do put in a lot more to sustain and keep everything moving.

The past can only be the past. So let the present determine the future.

AND Yes, so I'm not going to let my existing relationships with my jc buddies and closest girlie friends from secondary school deterioate.

Like Ah Neh (Xin Yi) said "30 years from now, we'd still be goin to Joo's (HN) house to play mahjong." =D

Well said indeed. :)

So "You I remember because of what you are to me." :)

Here's poem I've read that depicts this well also.
It's about how one remembers forgotten people from the past.

So keep those Christmas Cards sending when the season come! :D ENJOY READING!

Christmas Card - Rod McKuen

Where do they go
the people in our lives
that sail in like green leaves
and disappear like snow?
Not just in December
or the stormy winter months
but through the year
and through the years.

Looking up a name today
I passed through three pages of G's
and found at least six names
I can't remember or never knew.

I addressed and sent
Christmas cards out and over to them
all the same
for what if someone
somewhere else
fingering over his phone book
passed over those same names.
Happy Christmas G's and X, Y, X's
and thank you for whatever care
or kindness you passed along to me
that my addled brain forgot.

You I remember
because of what you are to me.
Merry Christmas.

ps: I think this poem would have had more effect if seen during the december season, innit? xb

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"You I remember because of what you are to me." (:

Monday, 23 April 2007

9:08 am